Lying staring to the sky my back flat on a cold rock, I have only felt this way one other time. This feeling is one that is hard to describe, it is not one in which I can just give a silly analogy to give you the reader something to go off of. This feeling is true deflation. Imagine in an instant you suddenly know your everyday being has suddenly changed, but is it this instant or an accumulation which has climaxed at this moment. One thing was for certain however, I was in a heap of pain. The bone had pushed through the skin on impact, as soon as I found my weight back I gave a full assessment finding this and quickly grabbing my leg to shift it back into the skin.
And now at rock bottom, staring into the sky in wonder, everything was suddenly out of my control. This is a place I rarely find comfort, but this time is different. Suddenly trapped in a place which is so hard to see how on earth it will end ok, the best thing for me to be was passive accepting and knowing that it will all eventually turn out ok. True friends hold it down for you here, or in the case of my leg, hold it up to try and control the swelling (THANKS BRENT). And in that moment the waiting game was on. As the pain came in waves over the next two hours so did my moods, it is really so interesting how self control can fly off the hinges in some scenarios.
Then they showed up, the good old Fayetteville, WV EMS. What a bunch these guys are. If you are unfamiliar the area in which we were climbing this day is about a 20-30 min hike, you have to go down ladders to get to it, and as they showed up it was apparent their trainings did not involve being fit enough to tackle that on the daily. But suddenly I was felt better just feeling that presence. They hooked me up with some morphine, set me all up in the little yellow basket, gave me an orange helmet and away we went as they hauled me up Endless Wall.
As I left the beauty once more with my tail between my legs knowing I breached her value with my attitude towards her, this time I was learning my third. No one can thrive on their own, when we are down, share yourself fully; there is support for us in many different ways. At the same, we must begin to listen without this you will be just another rambling man lost in his own wake; in order for us fully to benefit from the brilliance of support it goes both ways.
After they hauled me up, hiked me out, and drove me down the road for the first and hopefully only time in my whole life that I got to ride in a helicopter, even in times like this life has an interesting way of giving us experiences. Next time I write it will be of the Surgery I hope you enjoyed this Chapter, and I hope you will check in again.
NTVS
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